Thin

 membrane so thin
I'm growing weary.  Is this wait on my shoulders evidence of deep hearted warnings?  support from so many miles loses timing in potency.  Tricky fingers tap away at tricks and I once again hold from the danger pattern.  Sheltered in my perfection filter cocoon, I see the sketch though fog.  guide my steps in one way.  As this turns to thick butter with in I must trust in the end.  I will trust in the end.  I'll bend in a way to bring beauty to the One.
My arms kept free, I can swing with open hands!  progress is merely moments away!  Life plans come together...what letter comes after "z"?
Deep spring of joy out waits the double meaning I apply and I laugh with out intention.  There is no moment nor craft nor skill I can use to carve out joy.  All else I can build from scratch, but joy...uncharted flow source from before time began.  I am unmade without it.  I am more free when I can't see. Blind me as long as you my ears can hear the way to go,
I'll follow.

the oil in my engine

I ran low on oil but the engine kept plugging away.  and this is who I am.

I struggle to come home (closet and tool are closer).  I climb mountains and weep while doing it. Throat so sore from misplaced food and the resulting war to remove the foreign body.  Then there is this circular hunt for the gromwell while I avoid all plant life so as to not stumble upon one.  I'll read all about it, and study structure to learn the best basis.
Impractical and maybe unwise.  Act on faith with some waiting and stating "Can you play more, I love your voice."
Sweet sound, but the previous pattern might suggest a longer incubation period.  Give it all up and run in only one direction.  cut all strings. tie down the loose ends in a way that keeps them controlled.  running down mountains with protection in mind.  I view the safe path so they don't fall...as much.

so sorry for this stop and go.  We'll see in days to come how the pattern pans out.  no roof but I know I can handle out door life. rent and rave a good title for future reference.

Parallel's

I follow a blog called Walk Outside and it is so much fun to see this journey.  When the opportunity to go on a little hike came up I jumped at it!  This Monday I'll be heading out on a trip with some local friends for my first camping trip in over a decade! I think.  I am very much looking forward to the time to share songs and the deeper topics that arise from camp fire talks.

and the stars...SuShi  and Blue Gate know what I'm talking about...

 If I had a twitter and a way to tweet, I would surely tag my brave AT thru hikers. ("That's Right" and "Was it a real snake?" run through my head)  I'll try to write down the memorable phrases and post them upon my return to the computer infested world.

hope you all have a good friday

(pun intended!)

Uncle hood

   I was reminded I have begun to miss out on birthdays.  This is only impacted more by missing the first birthday of my sisters first.  Though I am geographically much closer, I am busy with rather important paper work that prevents me from traveling.  That being said I am so happy to be an Uncle that I want to figure out a way to make myself relevant.  Even if its only a little.  Long distance relationships, I never thought I would want to work so hard on them!

  In other news I'm moving a little north in a few days.  Where you ask?  I'm not sure yet but that will be quite the adventure.  I'm sure a wealth a writing material will be gained in the process.  I'm off to start my day!

friends with words

I endeavor to do better with this.  A few weeks ago I blogged at the beach and enjoyed it.  Yet the distance to cary it and danger of a computer that close to sand and salt water are also good deterrents.  I struggle to find a daily routine, but that is to be expected when the days are always so different.  There is a measure on the horizon that will help curb this: Language learning!  I am enrolled in a class that will begin in the middle of next month!

I am very thankful to my friend SuShi for encouraging me with comments and overcoming the repeated aggravation of "robot security" to do so. And I must also thank Mancub for the great videos and continual inspiration to keep pressing on as he and Kitfox are also doing.
(sorry Kitfox, couldn't find a url for you)

prop

oh but that is your intellectual property and what would happen if you found out one day that you had put it out and all the while they were taking from you with out your knowing it. I'm half way through reading the book with out punctuation and it is good.  It made him cry.  was it the film or our last film. rage? maybe at my sheer lack of outingness.  I stay in? I am...idle?
fire burns with in and though it may consume me I fear it not.  bring on the transformation, chemical or other wise.  I'm in for change.  I'm in for new.  Death is no stranger and as I'm already dead, nothing can kill me.  I'll live in these new things and walk out failures stumbling.  The bend draws nigh and just around it is more than twizzlers can bring and I am weeping to get to this land as the land gets to me...just give me that card.

I'll use it as a prop

one month

How I got by an entire month with out acknowledging it was an entire month I do not know...but now it has been done.