right here in the middle of where I need to be
and what seems to be a land mass shifting around me...
Such pause given in return for a gift.
and this one week after joy and smiles at the prospect.
While I have freedom and joy
something is sinking
but is it a feeling or a settling?
This will be seen soon as we find out if the fast was as fussed as he made it.
speaking of fast:
This other, so slow, must end! And I am out of the way in minutes.
(It's my skill) and oh so joyous to have a corner whole where I can begin to build a better bag.
(and it seems the tools will be left with me as I have been stuck out.)
(I love the cold)
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Medical Clown?
So I have this job right...This job where I teach acting skills to children. A woman called the school I work at and asked who taught the acting classes. Why did she want to be in touch with the acting teacher? Well it just so happens that she is a Medical Clown and...
I stopped listening and took the contact info. I'll find out later....when my brain is calm enough to listen!
I stopped listening and took the contact info. I'll find out later....when my brain is calm enough to listen!
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
post title
is the text and OH how I have failed in so many many many many
running out of water
running out
the wood panel floor you see before you has a tendency to splinter, so I caution you to watch your step
and We'll poor into a place unhealthy for others...
---
I told him his story changed. He resisted this truth because he wants to believe I was not told the whole story. As though he made a statement those many months ago and I was merely miss reading it. Yet when you factor in my questions of clarification, the result was exactly that, clarification.
Now the unraveling begins because I hold true to the picture given. I see the difference between them and I highlight. Nail grinding extraction of more answers as the struggle to save a measure of face makes manic his pace. He rejects the chemo because his hair is falling out and I tell him this does not sway me. I'd rather he be bald and alive.
---
And what of the other side of the coin? Well this was drawn out by myself with strong lead. I've gone on walks of short destination. I'm so satisfied and yet not sleeping. Resisting the fight, I have flight in Faith. I'll sideline out and bend the knee to see an outcome. This makes me inactive in a world that honors action. I ache deep in tow. A drag coefficient almost a year long, but my knees are heavy and I'll lock them down. I have no say in the greater plan so I'll act as the time suits. Glory be unto the greater than me.
running out of water
running out
the wood panel floor you see before you has a tendency to splinter, so I caution you to watch your step
and We'll poor into a place unhealthy for others...
---
I told him his story changed. He resisted this truth because he wants to believe I was not told the whole story. As though he made a statement those many months ago and I was merely miss reading it. Yet when you factor in my questions of clarification, the result was exactly that, clarification.
Now the unraveling begins because I hold true to the picture given. I see the difference between them and I highlight. Nail grinding extraction of more answers as the struggle to save a measure of face makes manic his pace. He rejects the chemo because his hair is falling out and I tell him this does not sway me. I'd rather he be bald and alive.
---
And what of the other side of the coin? Well this was drawn out by myself with strong lead. I've gone on walks of short destination. I'm so satisfied and yet not sleeping. Resisting the fight, I have flight in Faith. I'll sideline out and bend the knee to see an outcome. This makes me inactive in a world that honors action. I ache deep in tow. A drag coefficient almost a year long, but my knees are heavy and I'll lock them down. I have no say in the greater plan so I'll act as the time suits. Glory be unto the greater than me.
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Ready to Share
I kissed her...
I'll wait for the noise to die down and then apologize for the misleading start to the statement.
...at the movie theater....
Will you please be quiet so I can finish the statement!
...on the back of the hand. Ok and you are still thinking romantic aren't you? Because you want the best for me and you want to see me happy and you think this would work out well. Stop getting carried away and realize I'll share it when it happens. So, if I have not shared, "it" has yet to happen.
There was meaning to this slight peck. It was a thank you. You see, a group of us were watching a movie. There was this part in the movie when the wife was getting undressed. To protect me, she put her hand in front of my eyes. Almost as a reflex I thanked her in this way. She pulled back and my heart sunk for moment, only to float back soon after as her hand returned. The scene was not over and she returned to follow through to the end.
Why does this story lift my heart? Because she cares and she shared it in a way that was very clear to me. I'm kind of deaf in these matters and it can be easy for me to forget.
Still convinced this story as romantic over tones? The kiss was not what I was ready to share, it was my deafness.
I'll wait for the noise to die down and then apologize for the misleading start to the statement.
...at the movie theater....
Will you please be quiet so I can finish the statement!
...on the back of the hand. Ok and you are still thinking romantic aren't you? Because you want the best for me and you want to see me happy and you think this would work out well. Stop getting carried away and realize I'll share it when it happens. So, if I have not shared, "it" has yet to happen.
There was meaning to this slight peck. It was a thank you. You see, a group of us were watching a movie. There was this part in the movie when the wife was getting undressed. To protect me, she put her hand in front of my eyes. Almost as a reflex I thanked her in this way. She pulled back and my heart sunk for moment, only to float back soon after as her hand returned. The scene was not over and she returned to follow through to the end.
Why does this story lift my heart? Because she cares and she shared it in a way that was very clear to me. I'm kind of deaf in these matters and it can be easy for me to forget.
Still convinced this story as romantic over tones? The kiss was not what I was ready to share, it was my deafness.
Friday, February 22, 2013
the story
So the next post will be a story, or part of a story. There will be more to the story. It is merely a snap shot in the midst of a much longer narrative that may never come to light here, but it is a very clear part that is ready to be seen and maybe even heard, though that would be some other kind of feet.
Most of the time this blog is filled with the absurd as my posts have little grounding in strait line logical mental processes. "and we always hit at the edge of my eye line"
You see what I mean? These were the words that felt write to put down for me, but in what world can another person read them and truly believe there is a connection and then derive a meaning from what is written? not to mention the mutating webs that form as I struggle to use another language.
So should you ever have questions, feel free to ask. If I don't answer you, or you like the question that was asked and see that I did not answer it, please don't take offense. More than likely you will get an answer though. I warn you now, you may find the answers I give cause you to ask more questions, but those also will be revealing! ;)
Happy reading every one!
and my newest readers in Romania, France and Ukraine!
Most of the time this blog is filled with the absurd as my posts have little grounding in strait line logical mental processes. "and we always hit at the edge of my eye line"
You see what I mean? These were the words that felt write to put down for me, but in what world can another person read them and truly believe there is a connection and then derive a meaning from what is written? not to mention the mutating webs that form as I struggle to use another language.
So should you ever have questions, feel free to ask. If I don't answer you, or you like the question that was asked and see that I did not answer it, please don't take offense. More than likely you will get an answer though. I warn you now, you may find the answers I give cause you to ask more questions, but those also will be revealing! ;)
Happy reading every one!
and my newest readers in Romania, France and Ukraine!
Thursday, February 21, 2013
What have I
Done and over
What have I done?
In the morning I run to put pen to paper
but the ink is stronger and cuts at another place.
How listening changes my eyeballs.
I long to catch a sight of them holing hands
with shielded eyes, he chose to write a short story
and bleed out what can be done.
the quiet of a babbling brook makes a promise to welcome him in
so there will be no need to hide and the open will be a new boundary of joy
joy unending.
What have I done?
In the morning I run to put pen to paper
but the ink is stronger and cuts at another place.
How listening changes my eyeballs.
I long to catch a sight of them holing hands
with shielded eyes, he chose to write a short story
and bleed out what can be done.
the quiet of a babbling brook makes a promise to welcome him in
so there will be no need to hide and the open will be a new boundary of joy
joy unending.
Monday, February 18, 2013
...They are coming much faster these days.
I have to organize
I've been foolish and I reel at what comes next.
you see that time of rounding, it always comes at the completion
and sixty more seconds burns away at the center.
does hitting away rule out timely moments in time?
in what state shall I?
hacked to the bit
like a strait blade sharpened pencil
rockin out the intangible from previous experience
roller coaster again on a big international news day...
I have to organize
I've been foolish and I reel at what comes next.
you see that time of rounding, it always comes at the completion
and sixty more seconds burns away at the center.
does hitting away rule out timely moments in time?
in what state shall I?
hacked to the bit
like a strait blade sharpened pencil
rockin out the intangible from previous experience
roller coaster again on a big international news day...
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Grinding out the pieces from the wall enclosed
Grinding out the pieces from the wall enclosed
I've broken all my nails
and the power dries up
so I stick to drowning out the static with
a louder version of static that has more discernible drums.
I am floored by the thought that one posting can appeal to handfuls.
I am appalled by the flooring that one thought can handle postfuls.
So I hope you see...I want you to see...
but only by asking,
and I have some questions that will time out in a few months
1.5 months
can it be that i sit on a couch with such knowledge in my head?
can a bring down my whole house? is that on my agenda?
I'll pass the test. I diminish yet remain ever eastward.
may this bring you space and joy!
I've broken all my nails
and the power dries up
so I stick to drowning out the static with
a louder version of static that has more discernible drums.
I am floored by the thought that one posting can appeal to handfuls.
I am appalled by the flooring that one thought can handle postfuls.
So I hope you see...I want you to see...
but only by asking,
and I have some questions that will time out in a few months
1.5 months
can it be that i sit on a couch with such knowledge in my head?
can a bring down my whole house? is that on my agenda?
I'll pass the test. I diminish yet remain ever eastward.
may this bring you space and joy!
Saturday, February 16, 2013
gold fools
That'd be me in the range of more than one tear.
I can't tell you the last time I went without water
because I drown almost every day
I guzzle
more than stream 'cause its close to flood of
Pizza place with another name
What does PUI mean? and guess what I had for chicken?
DINNER!
(remember the upside down nature of my unending stepping?)
It is in my nature to run the ground into place. Maybe you need to have a place next to the other place.
to create some space. Though I can do this for you in the here and now. Long dead, I'll plan it out for you in the future...
keep scrolling
yeah yeah,
Keep at it...
Done!
;-)
I can't tell you the last time I went without water
because I drown almost every day
I guzzle
more than stream 'cause its close to flood of
Pizza place with another name
What does PUI mean? and guess what I had for chicken?
DINNER!
(remember the upside down nature of my unending stepping?)
It is in my nature to run the ground into place. Maybe you need to have a place next to the other place.
to create some space. Though I can do this for you in the here and now. Long dead, I'll plan it out for you in the future...
keep scrolling
yeah yeah,
Keep at it...
Done!
;-)
Friday, February 15, 2013
Hunting!
For a new place to live
(Who told
you this?)
I hunt in the passive
(Who told
you this?)
The approach is only slightly more painful than the departure
due to anesthetic residue permeating the air.
I am, as always, upside down. this is no problem
only in relating to the next step, because I descend
in order to reach a space higher.
(Who told
you this?)
(Who told
you this?)
I hunt in the passive
(Who told
you this?)
The approach is only slightly more painful than the departure
due to anesthetic residue permeating the air.
I am, as always, upside down. this is no problem
only in relating to the next step, because I descend
in order to reach a space higher.
(Who told
you this?)
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
deadlines
I got to be quite good at them. Then I got busy and things started falling through cracks.
:(
:(
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
a letter
I should not be doing this right now
I should be writing a letter,
but you won't know that until later
('cause I'm singin' it later)
all to my self, I attack this honey rice and chain myself inside.
I am pulling out the roots in fear of the blessings to come.
Not that they are not weeds
These are facts we are not yet knowing
we can wait months for this type of confer
conversation brings out the the sparkle in my eyes
and why would that be?
a second foolish but the dishes got done.
HA!
What do you have to say about that!?
Can I finish my home work in time for the dance?
It will be a swinging time ;-)
I should be writing a letter,
but you won't know that until later
('cause I'm singin' it later)
all to my self, I attack this honey rice and chain myself inside.
I am pulling out the roots in fear of the blessings to come.
Not that they are not weeds
These are facts we are not yet knowing
we can wait months for this type of confer
conversation brings out the the sparkle in my eyes
and why would that be?
a second foolish but the dishes got done.
HA!
What do you have to say about that!?
Can I finish my home work in time for the dance?
It will be a swinging time ;-)
Monday, February 11, 2013
ideas
I told a friend from Germany that I was doing a 365 and she asked me "What is that?"
I explained it and said I was not sure how I would fill each post. the idea for doing album reviews came up and I said it was likely I would only do that as a last resort...if I had no other idea what to do
The Oh Hellos released a great album recently!
Through the Deep Dark Valley
Driving rhythms
I love it! great lyrics. makes me happy and want to dance!
mmm
Here we see part of the problem...I have no idea what to write. I did this once for a band called Family Force 5. I was really inspired by the vision the album cast in my head. Writing was simple. But with out the inspiration I have no idea what it is I need to start with.
maybe that is where I need to start!
It usually works for me this way. I acknowledge that I do not know what to do and that is when I can see the start more clearly!
Maybe I'll write an entire post of how I listen to an album and my approach to loving music...inspiration!
I explained it and said I was not sure how I would fill each post. the idea for doing album reviews came up and I said it was likely I would only do that as a last resort...if I had no other idea what to do
The Oh Hellos released a great album recently!
Through the Deep Dark Valley
Driving rhythms
I love it! great lyrics. makes me happy and want to dance!
mmm
Here we see part of the problem...I have no idea what to write. I did this once for a band called Family Force 5. I was really inspired by the vision the album cast in my head. Writing was simple. But with out the inspiration I have no idea what it is I need to start with.
maybe that is where I need to start!
It usually works for me this way. I acknowledge that I do not know what to do and that is when I can see the start more clearly!
Maybe I'll write an entire post of how I listen to an album and my approach to loving music...inspiration!
Sunday, February 10, 2013
This just in...
I clocked in and they have no work for me...
I logged off of FB for the week so this became my destination. yesterday I had 3 minutes to write. Today I have 3 hours! though I am sure I'll get a few projects in the next three hours...
mmm I'm going to post this and go do some sudoku.
maybe I'll be back and I can vent on the out of tune quality that permeates these walls...
I logged off of FB for the week so this became my destination. yesterday I had 3 minutes to write. Today I have 3 hours! though I am sure I'll get a few projects in the next three hours...
mmm I'm going to post this and go do some sudoku.
maybe I'll be back and I can vent on the out of tune quality that permeates these walls...
Saturday, February 9, 2013
3 minutes
...Till Midnight
thought by the other time clock I'm sure it is already the 10th for me it is still the 9th and by posting this tiny bit I'm just under the wire and doing well with an every day streak!
that will be all!
thought by the other time clock I'm sure it is already the 10th for me it is still the 9th and by posting this tiny bit I'm just under the wire and doing well with an every day streak!
that will be all!
Friday, February 8, 2013
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Short on cure
week long wait until
the roll
and a building force flats out to promise a joyful joy in afternoons potential.
the number hits top levels and the times claw at the floor above my head.
short, yes short is the reason, but you'll never know it from where I stand.
Short on cure
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Oh Nuts!
Of all the kinds of bags
I bring the empty! tweet here and then there and erode his disillusion
"I'm so scared to be hurt" let me take this fear away and say:
It is all a matter of when it will round out so please walk in a way that makes you think you can.
slow steady pase car
I follow
can I tell you of this deadly eye infection and the forbidden antibiotics?
my path so strictly guarded and yet inclusive...
I bring the empty! tweet here and then there and erode his disillusion
"I'm so scared to be hurt" let me take this fear away and say:
It is all a matter of when it will round out so please walk in a way that makes you think you can.
slow steady pase car
I follow
can I tell you of this deadly eye infection and the forbidden antibiotics?
my path so strictly guarded and yet inclusive...
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
sense of smell
It is time for my departure for this aroma
propels
what is the time
thrown out and about till the young lady gains
you should run, because all other options are fading and for a time...
(at what point will I see that words falling in darkness can't help?
Oh Never! It depends on the words you use!
May mine be the words that work!!!
propels
what is the time
thrown out and about till the young lady gains
you should run, because all other options are fading and for a time...
(at what point will I see that words falling in darkness can't help?
Oh Never! It depends on the words you use!
May mine be the words that work!!!
Monday, February 4, 2013
5450
payment for services rendered
though mostly flow through round up plus 50
I am trying to keep my rational end out and about
but the inside needs to be...
I ought listen to more than myself and I long for the time that it will bounce
shielded strong so as to see the shell
auto pilot on the finger tip cause the audio is running first date
trips
failing round to the end
and little sisters come to this seeing joy runs the gambit
the best is in the book
but blows up out of it
I mean it flows up out of it
grab the paddle
and help me.
though mostly flow through round up plus 50
I am trying to keep my rational end out and about
but the inside needs to be...
I ought listen to more than myself and I long for the time that it will bounce
shielded strong so as to see the shell
auto pilot on the finger tip cause the audio is running first date
trips
failing round to the end
and little sisters come to this seeing joy runs the gambit
the best is in the book
but blows up out of it
I mean it flows up out of it
grab the paddle
and help me.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
מה זאת אומרת?
"What does this mean?" and the circle goes round and round!
teacup folded into heart and the curious falls apart.
so the scroll un rolls
a story retold for yet another revolution
all the way around my center.
Shovel more שום
I can handle better this over that and you don't quite see how i feed you?
it's okay, you checked the coffee and the bee spit saved it all.
Why are me feet so stuck? Do you think I can bear it?
?מה זאת אומרת
teacup folded into heart and the curious falls apart.
so the scroll un rolls
a story retold for yet another revolution
all the way around my center.
Shovel more שום
I can handle better this over that and you don't quite see how i feed you?
it's okay, you checked the coffee and the bee spit saved it all.
Why are me feet so stuck? Do you think I can bear it?
?מה זאת אומרת
Saturday, February 2, 2013
feed back
I have not received any feed back outside of the number of hits I can see in my stats. I posted a link to one of my posts on Face book and it was looked at by numerous people. This is only because of the link. Normally a get a few hits per post and that is all. Yesterdays however rocked almost three times the norm. was it that powerful?
Friday, February 1, 2013
It's not what you think.
You have broken me.
You have broken me and I do not want to be around you.
and yet still you call out to me.
With little regard for my discomfort you, smile.
You shine your beauty on my rainy day.
I am sunburned and you embrace me?
Why must your face be at every turn?
Why do you bring this flood of emotion?
You broke the dam and caused this flow to wipe me all away
I am swept from ground at your entrance.
THIS IS MY SPACE. I need room to breath
and as I run
What do I smell?
You find a way for your aroma to infect the air.
There is no space of safety from you
your voice whispers me awake
your hand pulls me from sleep
your smell forces memory over dreams
your likeness, an obstacle to my rest
and in my diminished state
all I taste is bitterness.
Why? Why must i be so broken by you!?!
You have broken me and I do not want to be around you.
and yet still you call out to me.
With little regard for my discomfort you, smile.
You shine your beauty on my rainy day.
I am sunburned and you embrace me?
Why must your face be at every turn?
Why do you bring this flood of emotion?
You broke the dam and caused this flow to wipe me all away
I am swept from ground at your entrance.
THIS IS MY SPACE. I need room to breath
and as I run
What do I smell?
You find a way for your aroma to infect the air.
There is no space of safety from you
your voice whispers me awake
your hand pulls me from sleep
your smell forces memory over dreams
your likeness, an obstacle to my rest
and in my diminished state
all I taste is bitterness.
Why? Why must i be so broken by you!?!
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